Friday, April 30, 2004 | Friday, April 30, 2004

Hmm. I feel my sore throat going away. I feel my voice recovering from its horribly phlegmy state. I feel my nausea disappearing. I feel my psychoing doing its magic...

Just talked to nic, and nic, you are so idiotic, you just cause me to have a stomachache from excess laughing at your idiocy. :)

For the first time in my entire life, i made wanton today. Yes yes thanks for putting my nose to the grindstone, and i hope you're feeling guilty, muahahah!

Throat, i give you tonight to heal completely, because from tomorrow onwards till sunday, you will be abused excessively with tonnes of good yummy food! Regardless of whether you've recovered or not.

Phin's Steakhouse? :)

Wednesday, April 28, 2004 | Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Scrap the want to be goodlooking for that day. I just want to get well.

Dear God, pleasepleaseplease let me get well in time for saturday! Gimme these two days to fully recover and not puke anymore. In Jesus' name, amen.

I can't look at food anymore without feeling paranoid. Somehow whatever goes down comes up in a matter of hours. And up out of the wrong hole. Bleah. And this..this had to happen this week of all weeks. Sighhhh.

Tuesday, April 27, 2004 | Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Sigh. Dear God, please take away my sore throat and puffy eyes in time for saturday. Help me be goodlooking just for that day! Amen.

Didn't go school today, coulda gotten mc for tmr too, just that my patriotism got the better of me. School is important. Bah. Gonna grow fat too, got excused from pe for one week! Yay..i don't care..i can grow fat for all anyone cares. No exercising in this humid weather. Na-ah.

One of the benefits of being 18 this year: Ever since the introduction of the M18 rating, i've been able to watch movies like POC and Kill Bill Vol2. Yay yay yay. Kill Bill rocks, Kill Bill rocks! Even if some parts are a little dumb i.e. gordon liu flicking his wispy white beard with that 'whoosh' sound effect after every sentence he speaks etc. Haha. Dumb. All i want now is to get my hands on vol1. And watch that hot jap girl go swinging that heavy chainball or something. Hmm. Kinky. Go watch Kill Bill. :)

And only today did i realise how fully domesticated dory really is. He knows how to cook porridge! And cabbage soup. And sotongballs. And crabsticks. Okok i admit defeat. I can't cook those yet. In a few years' time dory. :)

And sorry nic for having to call off today's fondue pigout. :( I promise when my throat gets better we'll go stuff ourselves mad ok. Hehe.

Sigh, gotta do lit now.

Saturday, April 24, 2004 | Saturday, April 24, 2004

Yesterday was friday. :) Next saturday will be labourday. :)

Had econs test yesterday which, sad to say, i think i failed miserably. Indicator number one: i snored doing the mcqs. Indicator number two: i absolutely could not see the relation between marginal propensity to consume (mpc) and the longterm and shortterm effects in the economy. Sigh. Furthermore i went around the whole day with panda eyes having woken up early to bring eunice's bdae card to school. Seeing this eunice scurry to school at 7am in the morning is a pretty unusual sight. Usually this eunice reaches school at o735 on the dot in time for assembly. Groan.

Evening and night got a little better though, with a few exceptions. Went with dory to see 5ofirstdates. His last real exam in a goood long while, that lucky toad. :)

The good side was that the movie has a really good plot (unlike theprince&me). It just boggles the mind how sandler has to remind barrymore every single day that she's in love with him, married to him, pregnant with his child, that she's gonna go into labour soon, that she's a mum, that she's ageing..blahblahblah. The not-so-romantic yet believably-realistic conclusion to the movie. "And you never open the car door for me anymore!" Heehee.

The bad side of it: i put my bag on the carpeted floor thinking it'd be alright, my precious bag would be safe there..right? Wrong. It was soaking wet when i got down to pick it up with some sticky liquid which i shudder to wonder what it really is. Went around the rest of the time with a sticky right shoulder and sticky hands. Yuck.

Went for dinner after that..and guess what. The stupid uncle gave me mushy fishballs. Really mushy ones. For goodness sake, whatever happened to good ol' bouncy ones?!

Later meeting nic and then gonna go on to church to watch FindingNemo. Yay! Mykemykemykemykemyke. :)

Wednesday, April 21, 2004 | Wednesday, April 21, 2004

Here's a tribute to the unsung hero(ine?) in my life. :)

Nic baby, girlie, you rock my world. You'll always be my bestest bestest best friend. Nothing can ever change that fact. I love you very very much! :)

Monday, April 19, 2004 | Monday, April 19, 2004

Just finished watching the first episode of blueprint. Haha. Didn't get to watch it on friday when it was shown cuz my mum monopolises the tv every night. And you know what. That episode is so soo sweet! It's all about a thirteen year old boy's perspective on life..especially love. (I mean it's guys we're talking about, how can their lives not revolve around looking at girls, yeesh) And it was all about his first love. Arg, just gimme a sappy preteen love story on tv and i'll ooh and aah over it. The ending bit made me ruin my contacts..again. Aww. Unblossomed love always gets you right there. Eeling! A little less of your influence please!

4 more days to friday, 12 more days to mayday! :) Happily happily counting down. One of the occasions i'm so glad i was born on a public holiday. This way..i'm free to do whatever i want! Muahahahs. A simple lunch and dinner out, or nice ones at a good cafe/restaurant? Or maybe just a go-oo-od dinner. Haha. It's nice to dream of the perfect birthday.. :)

Enough of dreaming. Sigh. Back to lit essay.

Ps. don't you agree some people, teachers in particular, so don't have a life? cough.

Friday, April 16, 2004 | Friday, April 16, 2004

I feel stupid. I need to start mugging.

I feel fat. I need to start exercising more.

Wednesday, April 14, 2004 | Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Today i woke up aching all over. As in all over. Ponned pe halfway yesterday..better not become a habit, sigh. It was so blardy hot! Doing pushups on the hot track at 3pm in the afternoon is no joke. They're crazy... Yep, ponned pe, ran home, and swam 1o laps in the pool instead. Ahh..now that's the way to exercise. Haha. I feel my stomach growing distinctly flatter now. Guess i'll go swimming regularly from now on. And get a nice nice tan in the midst too. :)

Wenta eat Popeye's finally just now too! Yay..i love the mashed potato there. It rox. Hehe.

And rae's teaching is like damn good. She came so well prepared i think i should start paying her professionally --after my current tuition ends on may 15 (yayyayyay!).

Hmm damn hot now. Gonna bathe. Will go swimming again tmr. :)

Monday, April 12, 2004 | Monday, April 12, 2004

Hmm haven't updated in quite awhile. Not having your laptop anymore makes it kinda hard...sigh. Yet liberating in a sense :) This weekend was go-oo-od. Friday was Good Friday, also sanpor's birthday, haha. Worship was damn good; think i also saw some of the choir ppl cry from outta e corner of my eye. But puhleese remind me to shut myself up at home the next time there's a public holiday?! The rest of the day was basically a wild goose chase all over s'pore, in the name of watching The Prince & Me, bah. To cut a long story short, ended up at jurongpoint watching the crappy Taking Lives la. I hate watching thrillers. No i don't like getting thrilled thank you very much. And i hate little boys! I'll always bear grudges on little boys after what happened that night. I was minding my own business in my own cubicle when suddenly this jet of liquid came shooting out of the cubicle beside mine and landed on my feet. SO. I came out of my cubicle, stood outside, and waited for the door of the cubicle next to mine to open. And this little boy came..calmly walking out. Deduce this, deduce that? I wasn't very happy, mind you. And later after the movie, another little boy, lost amidst the world of skyscapers also known as grownups, clutched at the object nearest to him, which also happened to be my butt. Eunice and small boys just don't go la huh. After that wenta see the landscape from Kentridge Park. The scenery there's super super nice, with all the city lights blinking down below from the hilltop.

Sat morn, went tanning with pris. If eunice isn't able to go sentosa, sentosa will come to eunice (just in the form of the condo pool, tt's all, muahahs). But damn weird la, you're in your bikini and all the small kids running around, and with one she-lang hanging around the pool. Sentosa's still the best. Went church after that to study..and did only a pathetic amount of work. Had a nice talk with peiyun after that, and it's uncanny how like christine she is! And it's a compliment k. She and sam, with both their baby faces..damn cute. :) Then had steamboat, which was quite ok, just tt i think i only ate 2 dollars worth, sigh. But the skit was damn funny la, think everyone went away thinking abt the significance it was meant to portray? At least i remember fried lies and steamed honest duck. :) Grr and it's irritating when you know you have a curfew of 12 midnight and you know you can't join the rest for supper. Double grr. When i'm twenty one..............

Sunday was kinda exhausting and stressful for the first half of the day. Went church in a bad mood, then wenta play pool and study geog at the same time while waiting for 3pm to come. And when groan 3pm came, sam and me headed for econs tuition. I hate hate hate econs! Sigh...misery ok. Giving up sundays are getting increasingly unbearable. Thank God for rae, yay! Our econs-redeemer! After tuition, dory came and heehee, all of us (the 4es, shaochun and dory) went for steamboat! Ee ling's belated birthday celebration you see.. Anyway, it was a good time spent eating and laughing, talking nonsense <--more on shaochun and dory's part, and eating. The only sad part were the two times i ate stuff raw--first the bittergourd, which tastes even more bitter when raw, and second this piece of uncooked meat which i still can't forget the taste of. Had lots of fun taking pics of all 6 of us too..wenta esplanade specially to do just that.

Today was nice too. Finally wenta see The Prince & Me, and although i was quite skeptical at first, it had an ok ending la. Believable. Then went tm to cut my hair. And i look 14 again! Wow... Something good and something bad. I don't look 17. Sigh.

Ookays, time to go do work. Another time then.

Tuesday, April 06, 2004 | Tuesday, April 06, 2004

Finally wenta watch The Passion Of The Christ today. Got turned away at tm, so hadda go suntec. And you know, it's the first movie i ever cried all the way through. Till today, I couldn't fully comprehend what Jesus really went through till i went to watch it. All the pain He endured during the flogging, the shoving of the crown of thorns into his head, the carrying of the cross, the nailing of the hands and feet to the cross. Especially the flogging bit. In previous older movies all these areas were merely glossed over or, at the very least, censored. Somehow watching a movie focusing almost totally on the violence and pain Jesus suffered and endured was perhaps like a slap to the face. On how much He loved us that He went through all that crap. When He could've simply snapped his fingers, be flogged one moment, and *poof*, be back in heaven the next. I wasn't the only one crying though, hehe. Someone else was crying too:)

Some parts were scary. Especially the one with the two children bit. Taunting Judas. Scary but real.

On a more hum-dee-dum mode, got back almost all my results already. Sigh, failed everything..literally and figuratively. Got an F O E if i'm not wrong. Haha, foe. Aye me..studies are indeed my foe. Gp compre was my only faint bright spot. Sigh, school simply sucks larh.

Monday, April 05, 2004 | Monday, April 05, 2004

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Saturday, April 03, 2004 | Saturday, April 03, 2004

Haven't had time to sit down and blog, plus the fact that my laptop's still out cold. Sigh. All my pictures and music files and stuff..all gone. Too bad i didn't do any backup, especially on those pics. The memories those pics bring back can never be replaced by any other.

Feeling quite empty now. This year's the most important one in my entire academic education. Am i doing any shit about it? No. Got back only econs so far; got an F for it..as expected. Missed the AO mark by a leetle bit, but nevertheless still an F. Don't have much hope for the rest of the subjs though, if i'm thinking of relying on the others for a source of comfort. Simply cuz there isn't any. Sometimes i feel soo lazy i feel like screaming at myself, for my lack of inertia. Push push push eunice! Hrm that sounded distinctly obscene, but wth.

Mood's quite blah now, so gotta forgive the blackness. I know i have to start working NOW, especially now with the super slack new timetable. Dear God please give me the will to push myself forward from now on. Gotta start studying nownownow. Give me the determination and motivation to want to do well for As. Amen.

Speaking of which, got my A level timetable already too; i start on the 8th nov with gp, will end on the 24th with twentieth century writing lit as last paper. Got to have everything down pat in the head by the time nov comes, cuz i don't know what the heck MOE and cambridge's thinking, but they just squashed most of the papers together in one stupid day, so much so that i will have to end up doing TWO three-hour papers in a day. And those papers are all intensive-study papers. They just want us to do badly don't they?! That means no burning of midnight oil the night before..no furious last minute studying the day before -- something which i've always been doing. Argh i'm starting to sweat just thinking about it.

Last night's SCGS concert was super good. Watched the girls perform the two musicals and somehow i feel quite envious. Envious of what? The plain and simple fact that they can SING. Whoa can they sing. The voices were super clear and the words could really be heard. Well except for a few solos which weren't so audible; think it wasn't cuz they were lousy though, simply nervousness? But eligirl, you can never make it as a boy! Although you are quite yandao. :) Maylin looked like some handsome hooligan, with her ponytail at the back like those guys have, that seriously i'd have fallen for her from afar if not for the fortunate knowledge i have of her being a girl already. Gah. Saw genevieve too; haven't seen her since i was 12, and the sudden realisation that she was there on stage singing and performing was too unbelievable. After 6 years! Wow time really does fly. SCGS choir girls are pretty la. Basically had a good time larh huh. Except that i developed a headache right after that, so had to go home immdediately. It didn't help my situation cuz for most of my trip back on the MRT alone, there was this bimbotic ah lian trying to act all petty with her poor bf, and she was just whining and whining away in this irritating high-pitched whiney tone which kept resounding in my pounding head. Grr.

On a lighter note, this sat morning was quite interesting. Spent the entire morning painting and decorating wooden frames for this charity funfair the j2s are gonna put up during the next two weeks. Will be held in the canteen during recess and lunch breaks. Hmm i decorated three, but i'm buying two of what i did. Haha. Maybe i'll just get one now, come to think of it. Quite broke enough as it is. Somehow i don't think any body else would want that one frame i'd be buying. :) Went home with quite a bad headache, same as last night's. Think it's due to the vast lack of sleep this past week.

Hmm hope dory's having a good time in bintan now. One thing i don't understand about guys though: like why would anyone in his right mind bring a PLAYSTATION to a beach resort when he should be enjoying the breeze and sun and clear waters. You wouldn't see girls doing that--staring at tv screens with those stupid controllers--when we could be out at the beach. Trust guys to do just that. *rolls eyes*. But somehow no matter how this typical guyness gets to me sometimes, you know i really do appreciate you, especially when you try set it aside and go with me shopping, or the simple act of writing just touches me.

Looking at all those ms s'pore contestants and their toned tummies now, i'm reminded of how paunchy my own is. Oh well.

I need to start playing my piano again. Soon. Somehow playing soothes and calms the mind. Something i will need ALOT in future. Too bad i've forgotten how to play more than half the songs i used to know. Failed pianist. Sigh.